"Might all my dreams be coming true? I pray everyday that they are..."

Wow, i know it's been a long time but i definately need to get thoughts out about the incredible roller coaster God has me on. I mean i knew when i got this job that it was what everything had been pointing toward but i don't think i got how MUCH that's true, how much i've been groomed for this, that i've been crafted for this. it's crazy how much the tea cup story i share on stage is what i feel about this internship. the process is trying and sometimes we dont' understand the curves and climbs but in the end it's like BAM!
between these conferences for young girls, teaching what i love-purity, beauty- in a way that i love-big stage, large crowds, loud music and excitement with evasive truth mixed between- and now the possibility of teaching a class to high school girls about that same thing that i love- biblical womanhood, practical womanhood- in a way i love- small classroom size, many guest speakers, room for discussion, not too many assignments to grade : ) - i just feel like no one has ever been this excited to do work lol
and that being said, i have no idea what this means for my life at large either. i feel like i'm in that place that i've been working toward for so long and now i don't know where i go from here because all i've been focused on is getting to this point. and for that matter does it matter if i dont' know where i'm going from here? if i am where i'm supposed to be and if i believe that my life has been orchestrated up to this point then why shouldn't i assume it will continue to go the same way.
i dunno, i like having a plan, i like knowing what i'm doing and where i'm going and where i'll be living, but by that same token i'm really into the excitement of not knowing. i like knowing that the only thing that i know is where to place my trust...

changedfish- i taste and see that YOU are good!