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Sunday, July 31, 2005

and if my mom hadn't been in labor on her birthday 17 years ago today, we wouldn't celebrate with cake

so i thot since i had a moment i would take some time to recap camp and my summer there before i forget all the wonderfulness that it entailed. i know i know, that has nothing to do with the fact that today is my 17th birthday, but that's ok with me, cuz i mean it's also my mom's 48th birthday so...why not just celebrate hers? eh?

camp this week was different from all the others because i didn't have a cabin of girls, in fact i didn't even have a cabin. i worked in the kitchen, and slept in my own room in the staff lounge ooo! it was so amazing, just as camp always is, i mean u know u wake up just as early and go to bed just as late and work totally hard, but i'm telling u that place is practically magical. i don't know how many of you have ever been to Mt. Meadow's or any summer camp at all but there are just somethings about it i'd never change, and i can complain about things that are different there than at home but really i love that place sooo much and the people sooo much and just the atmosphere of love that surrounds that lil 50 acre spot. things i miss when i'm at camp about home are (but not limited to):
  • brushing my teeth in cold water,
  • not having to jet up the largest hill on the planet to get to my cabin,
  • eating whatever i want whenever,
  • making dinner or washing dishes for 3 or 4 and not 100,
  • changing with out at least 8 pairs of eye balls watching you,
  • not having dirt everywhere
  • my family and friends,
  • phone calls,
  • emails,
  • driving,
  • etc.

but when i'm at home the things about camp i miss are (but not limited to):

  • counselors,
  • staff,
  • kids,
  • food,
  • outdoors,
  • cool weather,
  • buzzing the horn,
  • singing any song that comes to mind at any time,
  • mission impossible,
  • the pond,
  • cootie cabins,
  • danny dressed up as a doofus,
  • hand motions to songs,
  • running up the biggest hill ever just to get excersize
  • dirt....everywhere
  • etc.

so pretty much i dunno if that makes sense to anyone else but well i guess i just miss camp, and i'm not even officially done going there...i go up this comming weekend to work in the kitchen, cuz there's a camp of 160 comming and like no kitchen help so...yea. and then the next weekend is paul and shaelah's wedding (i can never spell her name right!) and that's at camp too so i'll be back the next two weekends and then school starts, joy....

Oh and i think my friend ashley is comming up to visit sometime soon and i'm way excited about it, but i'm not sure when, i just know it's gonna be in august sometime so i'm hoping it'll work out and such cuz that'd be fun!

but speaking of my birthday (not that i was but...eh it's my b-day i get to do that) allow me to recap...wake up, small open family gifts and things recieved in the mail (got Paris Hilton perfume from mi hermana and such, yey) then get ready etc. go with my fam, stef, and brett, to see Must Love Dogs, surprisingly good movie, not that i thot i'd be bad, but it was definately different than i thot, slightly less predictable, which was a nice change, and on the way out was of course a photo op on the booster seat pyramid yey! then we all carted ourselves to Chevy's (it's the sombrero's that getcha) and brett brought us roses which was sweet and we ate and they sang and i got a hat and such. so amy and brett took off for a wedding adn john came and picked stef up and the rents and i went home and cozied into bed to watch On Golden Pond (cuz if u remember it's my mom's b-day too adn welp, my dad wanted me to see it....u can see how that works lol) now i've just settled into some comfy shorts and my b-day shirt stef made me (i'm down w/the G-O-D~ can i get a what what for the man upstairs please) and am rocking out to stef's stellar mix tape and enjoying myself....i'm finally old enuf not to have to make my birthday this huge deal, u know how it is when ur little and it's the biggest day of the year and everyone must bow down and worship or else u cry- well my day hasn't been quite like that...ok i had a minor moment because i wanted it to be a family day and not an amy-brett me-stef mom-dad day but it turned out alright anyhow, despite that fact....i've had a good day and it hasn't had to be totally about me (besides i've had practice sharing it with my mom)

so now as an older and perhaps wiser, officially 17 year old girl on redding california i say whoo hooo i'm 17!!!

u know, this signals a full year of driving with out any tickets or getting pulled over, or popping a tire, or running out of gas, or getting in a wreck, or having anything major breakdown, etc. i'm pretty proud of myself.

changedfish-ramblings of a birthday princess

Saturday, July 23, 2005

ode to paskenta

"it almost fell in the JESUS CUP"
"mama, why are there pokies?" "cuz there's sin in the world!"
"i got oreo in my molars"
"you can do it, ya ya ya, cha cha cha"

ok so i forget most of it already...but gosh wasn't that the best??

ahh i love u girls and vbs and pictures and haunted door mats and creepy doors that lead to no-where and dead birds in the fire place and sweat band watches.....my life just keeps getting better and i can't figure out why the Lord is blessing me so but i'm in love with Him anyhow, no matter what i deserve (and this is CERTAINLY NOT IT) thank you God for this summer, it's not over yet! one more week up at the happiest place on earth and then my BIRTHDAY (july 30th fyi) not that i'm doing anything extra special, but i know that no matter what i do it'll be the best ever because this summer has been the best ever adn this year was the best ever and this next year is gonna be the best ever, because no matter how much life resembles hell it's still the best times of our lives!
changedfish-ps balloons pop!

Friday, July 15, 2005

camp

well i don't have much time at all to explain myself but i just wanted to tell u all that i've been having the most magnificant summer ever but that i won't be home much till august haha

by the way, this week TWO of my girls accepted the Lord!! He works in crazy ways but it was the most amazing thing i've ever experienced! i love you all...talk with you all as soon as i can!

changedfish- or Billy Graham, whatever

Thursday, July 07, 2005

i wrote this last year on february 5th....boy was i wrong

Don't listen to people! they don't know any better than u do! i've been thinking, that my friends don't really know any better than i do, i mean about life. it's like, y should i listen to what they think about MY life? how do they know any better than i do? i dunno, i think i like the innocent way of living, they say ignorance is bliss, and sometimes that's tru and sometimes its not, but i think for the most part i'd like to be able to choose whether i want to know or not, i mean isn't that my choice? shouldn't i be able to say what i do or don't want to know? well sometimes people just tell u things, and it's like, "SHUT UP, stop thinking u know my life better than i do!" i like to be independant. i like to find things out for myself, i like to feel that i could survive w/o any other humans telling me things, and truth is i know i couldn't , truth is i can't live w/o people, but truth is i think i could. anyhow, i dunno wut my deal is

-sometimes people do know better, sometimes finding out for yourself just makes u look stupid when u finally figure things out, sometimes u need someone to come along side and tell you the things u need to know...some time's people do know ur life better than u do, and they do know that u need to know something...i don't like to live in the dark like i did over a year ago, and i think it's better to live in the light anyhow, i mean really what good comes from darkness?

changedfish- drastic changes in opinion

I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear that your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?

when sometimes it seems that the odds are against u, think of someone who's worse off...it's simple and effective... sadly we humans tend to focas on ourselves ( i know i do) and sometimes it's best to step back and realize all the wonderful things that are going on and all the things u do have...those are the best moments in life!

changedfish- don't be a forgetful hearer, be an effectual doer

Saturday, July 02, 2005

i would totally love to go OFF on new york and camp but really i just don't know what i would say all i can do is thank God for my summer so far because it's been the time of my life!!

to my nyc girls: thank you for inviting me to come along, and thank you for the laughter, thanx for sticking with me and with each other, and thanks for making me sleep on the couch! haha j/k...i love you girls like sisters, and now we practically are "it sucks to be meeee...." haha just joshin!

changedfish-vote mel counselor of the year!