sometimes the people that know u the best, know u the least...
i've found that often people that have known me for the longest, or the people that i was closest to, feel that they know me very well. and that would be a true statement....however, at times it saddens me how poorly they portray their knowledge of my personality....if they would talk to me, ask me, actually know what happened or be there when things r happening, then i say make ur own decisions...but if ur just basing things off what u've heard or what other people saw then ur not being fair, and i KNOW life's not fair and i KNOW it's not supposed to be..but people should realize that at times i'd prefer fairness...at times i would really like for them to know what they are talking about before they say things.
some days i walk up to every crowd of people and realize they were just talking about me....i hate that, i hate that no one feels they can talk to me about me, i'm not an evil beast, i won't kill them, i will just tell them...but nope, most people would prefer to talk to those around them, they'd prefer to guess what i'm thinking, or decide for themselves what i should/shouldn't do...if i felt it was their business it wouldn't be so bad...but when it doesn't concern 1/2 the population of those discussing it (and discussing it falsely) that's when it causes me to become annoyed....and i do fully realize every step i take, i can see what i'm doing, what i've done, and i make my decisions because of what's best for me not for those around me because it's not their lives and they can make their own decisions as well...i'll even support those decisions! but hey if u think u can live my life better than i can, go for it, i'll let u take my schedule my stress, my life, for one day...think u could survive? think u could keep the tears back? think u could stand up tall and smile at everyone?...those r the things i strive for- a positive attitude, a loving personality, an enclusive nature....those r the things that matter to me, love, God, family, friends...not classes, or even future in this world...it's the big things that matter to me not the details
changedfish
i've found that often people that have known me for the longest, or the people that i was closest to, feel that they know me very well. and that would be a true statement....however, at times it saddens me how poorly they portray their knowledge of my personality....if they would talk to me, ask me, actually know what happened or be there when things r happening, then i say make ur own decisions...but if ur just basing things off what u've heard or what other people saw then ur not being fair, and i KNOW life's not fair and i KNOW it's not supposed to be..but people should realize that at times i'd prefer fairness...at times i would really like for them to know what they are talking about before they say things.
some days i walk up to every crowd of people and realize they were just talking about me....i hate that, i hate that no one feels they can talk to me about me, i'm not an evil beast, i won't kill them, i will just tell them...but nope, most people would prefer to talk to those around them, they'd prefer to guess what i'm thinking, or decide for themselves what i should/shouldn't do...if i felt it was their business it wouldn't be so bad...but when it doesn't concern 1/2 the population of those discussing it (and discussing it falsely) that's when it causes me to become annoyed....and i do fully realize every step i take, i can see what i'm doing, what i've done, and i make my decisions because of what's best for me not for those around me because it's not their lives and they can make their own decisions as well...i'll even support those decisions! but hey if u think u can live my life better than i can, go for it, i'll let u take my schedule my stress, my life, for one day...think u could survive? think u could keep the tears back? think u could stand up tall and smile at everyone?...those r the things i strive for- a positive attitude, a loving personality, an enclusive nature....those r the things that matter to me, love, God, family, friends...not classes, or even future in this world...it's the big things that matter to me not the details
changedfish
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