so many friends so little time!
i don't know what the deal is, but all of a sudden i totally have friends, and they actually want to spend time w/me and i have to like juggle plans around and prioritize who i want to spend time with and i'm DEFINATELY not used to this, it's not like i never had friends but somehow recently people want to be social, and so do i! i've made a buncha new friends this year and i really enjoy spending time w/new people! i was talking to a friend of mine about this same thing this weekend, it's like freshman year u see people and meet people and u sort of catagorize people and judge them and figure that certain people u'll never be real good friends with, and then by now (junior year) you've gotten to actually know these people and u realize that they rn't always the way u thot they were and often the people u never thot u'd be friends with end up being ur great friends and those u thot u'd always be super duper friends with start fading away....and it's not that it's a bad thing to switch friends or a good thing either, it's just different and exciting...only problem is fitting all the different groups into my schedule..i don't have a zillion friends but the several friends i do have all come from different circles so everytime i hang out w/someone it's not as if all of my friends r there...so i have to make time for the others and the other others and do u kinda understand what i mean? i dunno..i've always had different groups of friends but now it seems worse cuz i have old friends and i have new friends and i have youth group friends and i have outside friends and it's just like i love them all soo much and i wanna hang out w/them all, all the time cuz they're all so fun to hang out with and i don't want them to think that i'm not hanging out w/them much because they're not important to me, cuz they are, it's just that i try to split myself evenly and i always seem to leave someone out or something and i just feel so jerky, but i have to remind myself that it's not always my fault and i can't always be blaming myself cuz i'll give myself ulcers haha!
i think this post sounds really cocky like i'm so super popular and i just can't keep my friends straight, but that's not it at all, it just seems that as u get older people start being more social outside of school so even if u have very few friends ur still busier and such w/them....i dunno how to explain it, but i'm really not some popular freak, i just happen to like hanging out w/a bunch of different people...and whether they enjoy my company i don't know, but that's what i plan to find out by spending time with them!
i had a really fun weekend and i'm hoping that my week will be as much fun as the start of it was (i'm switching it from week"end" to week"start" huh huh huh? sound good haha) changedfish