summer's almost over and i didn't even realize it started...
i've loved this summer, being home this summer has been great. i know that i don't always blog the most positive things, especially abotu home and family or whatever but truly i'm happy, i really am. and my family's been great. i just have this thing about blogging when i'm in serious moods and not goofy moods because who wants to sit down and write when they've got energy, but that ends up giving the wrong impression- you'd think i was artsy or something (you know how people can be fun adn silly but when they do somethign artistic it's all of a sudden dark and moody?)
anyhow, camp took a while to sink into this year. i guess i just was kind of unsure of the material at first and was so distracted with my internship and not being where i knew i wanted my heart to be that i just couldn't get into the mode of it. but these last few weeks have been amazing. my friend had a hard time one week adn through helping her i just got to spend a whole night with God, just praising Him and praying about everything and it was the energizer i needed (granted i didn't get any sleep, but turns out you don't need sleep as much as the Lord's strength). anyhow from that point on my summer just turned around. jr. high week went great, at first my girls didn't particularly love me because they're snots like all jr. highers are but we ended up having a great week and hopefully they were challenged to make some life changes. then came high school week- wow. well first of all, that weekend i just stepped out on this limb and ended up giving camp bread to this couple under an overpass who were the NICEST, FRIENDLIEST people travelling through our smokey town (did i mention we've had over 200 fires burning continuously in our county since june?) anyhow, for high school camp i kind of ended up in charge of our girls night section of the week but man was that God's planning too. i think He just needed the woman who's normally in charge to realize that He's used her a lot but this year needed to be raw. He had something to say and it definately got said. even if the girls weren't impacted, i know i was. and not only that, that week i had kylee in my cabin, who is the most amazing girl! she had partial brain removal surgery when she was 4 or so because she had such severe epilepsy and let me tell you the only part they removed was the naughty/ mean part. she has so much energy and excitment, her attitude is perpetually sunny, and you should see her face light up when she finds out someone "has Jesus in their heart" she usually squeals and then hugs them : ) she taught me so much about the simplicity of life and the simplicity of humanity. how i dont' need to know all the answers to follow God- that's why i'm FOLLOWING not leading! it made my week harder, due to having to follow her around and help her do everything from showering to picking out clothes, but it was worth it- it teaches the other campers things and she has a blast.
i've said this too much this summer but it's true, God gave me a gift this summer and it came in the form of a friend named Molly. I won't go into much about that because the Lord blessed me though others too- i mean though Grace especially and through karen too, with felicia and bev and jamie and even in darlene's short time with us (sure the boys too but i spend less time with them) it's going to be much harder to leave this summer than i would've thought it would be. i dunno, somehow this summer it's like i finally sunk into the idea of being at home and realizing that i love redding. i adore Cedarville and it's exactly where i've needed to be these past couple of years but i finally think i'll be ready to leave after this year- i'm not ready to be done yet, but i realize now why i'm only there for three...it's time to come home and start life here again.
speaking of coming home again, at the beginning of the summer i had a complete blank sheet of paper for after graduation (and i mean ok so it's only a faint chalk outline now) but now i have a few puzzle pieces. one of my dearest friends that i grew up with was going to move out with a girl who is now getting married so it's real likely that she and i will move out together next spring after i get back and then out of no-where popped National University, a school right here in town that has a masters in counseling psychology program which is designed for those who are working full-time (which i'll need to be to pay rent and for school and stuff) and is an accellerated program which will get me done in 18 months. the best part is there are fewer pre-req's so i don't have to worry as much about my GRE scores and stress out about admissions essays and stuff- i mean they're not just going to let me walk in and sit at a desk but i'm much more relaxed about this coming year now that i know that i can just be me and still get more education. not that i'm some education freak but i just think it's smart to be prepared and to have enough education that if, may God-forbid, something were to happen where i needed to support myself or where i didn't get married or where whatever happens in life, because it's unpredictable, i could support myself.
well so anyhow, it was a phenomenal summer and i'm sad to see it be over- i leave in less than a week to start driving back to school, and i'm really excited about that, i've started packing and all, but still it seems awfully rushed- i just got here and all.
changedfish- big to-do list tomorrow...apparently every moment counts when you have a lot to do in a small amount of time : )
i've loved this summer, being home this summer has been great. i know that i don't always blog the most positive things, especially abotu home and family or whatever but truly i'm happy, i really am. and my family's been great. i just have this thing about blogging when i'm in serious moods and not goofy moods because who wants to sit down and write when they've got energy, but that ends up giving the wrong impression- you'd think i was artsy or something (you know how people can be fun adn silly but when they do somethign artistic it's all of a sudden dark and moody?)
anyhow, camp took a while to sink into this year. i guess i just was kind of unsure of the material at first and was so distracted with my internship and not being where i knew i wanted my heart to be that i just couldn't get into the mode of it. but these last few weeks have been amazing. my friend had a hard time one week adn through helping her i just got to spend a whole night with God, just praising Him and praying about everything and it was the energizer i needed (granted i didn't get any sleep, but turns out you don't need sleep as much as the Lord's strength). anyhow from that point on my summer just turned around. jr. high week went great, at first my girls didn't particularly love me because they're snots like all jr. highers are but we ended up having a great week and hopefully they were challenged to make some life changes. then came high school week- wow. well first of all, that weekend i just stepped out on this limb and ended up giving camp bread to this couple under an overpass who were the NICEST, FRIENDLIEST people travelling through our smokey town (did i mention we've had over 200 fires burning continuously in our county since june?) anyhow, for high school camp i kind of ended up in charge of our girls night section of the week but man was that God's planning too. i think He just needed the woman who's normally in charge to realize that He's used her a lot but this year needed to be raw. He had something to say and it definately got said. even if the girls weren't impacted, i know i was. and not only that, that week i had kylee in my cabin, who is the most amazing girl! she had partial brain removal surgery when she was 4 or so because she had such severe epilepsy and let me tell you the only part they removed was the naughty/ mean part. she has so much energy and excitment, her attitude is perpetually sunny, and you should see her face light up when she finds out someone "has Jesus in their heart" she usually squeals and then hugs them : ) she taught me so much about the simplicity of life and the simplicity of humanity. how i dont' need to know all the answers to follow God- that's why i'm FOLLOWING not leading! it made my week harder, due to having to follow her around and help her do everything from showering to picking out clothes, but it was worth it- it teaches the other campers things and she has a blast.
i've said this too much this summer but it's true, God gave me a gift this summer and it came in the form of a friend named Molly. I won't go into much about that because the Lord blessed me though others too- i mean though Grace especially and through karen too, with felicia and bev and jamie and even in darlene's short time with us (sure the boys too but i spend less time with them) it's going to be much harder to leave this summer than i would've thought it would be. i dunno, somehow this summer it's like i finally sunk into the idea of being at home and realizing that i love redding. i adore Cedarville and it's exactly where i've needed to be these past couple of years but i finally think i'll be ready to leave after this year- i'm not ready to be done yet, but i realize now why i'm only there for three...it's time to come home and start life here again.
speaking of coming home again, at the beginning of the summer i had a complete blank sheet of paper for after graduation (and i mean ok so it's only a faint chalk outline now) but now i have a few puzzle pieces. one of my dearest friends that i grew up with was going to move out with a girl who is now getting married so it's real likely that she and i will move out together next spring after i get back and then out of no-where popped National University, a school right here in town that has a masters in counseling psychology program which is designed for those who are working full-time (which i'll need to be to pay rent and for school and stuff) and is an accellerated program which will get me done in 18 months. the best part is there are fewer pre-req's so i don't have to worry as much about my GRE scores and stress out about admissions essays and stuff- i mean they're not just going to let me walk in and sit at a desk but i'm much more relaxed about this coming year now that i know that i can just be me and still get more education. not that i'm some education freak but i just think it's smart to be prepared and to have enough education that if, may God-forbid, something were to happen where i needed to support myself or where i didn't get married or where whatever happens in life, because it's unpredictable, i could support myself.
well so anyhow, it was a phenomenal summer and i'm sad to see it be over- i leave in less than a week to start driving back to school, and i'm really excited about that, i've started packing and all, but still it seems awfully rushed- i just got here and all.
changedfish- big to-do list tomorrow...apparently every moment counts when you have a lot to do in a small amount of time : )
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