If every word I said could make you laugh I'd talk forever

am i happy it's almost over? i guess, i don't know, yes? maybe?...it's such a hard thing to answer. i mean obviously i'm glad that i'll get to talk again but i feel like all that's going to do is make people line up to want to talk to me and i'll be back to square one, exactly what i was trying to avoid, i didn't mean for this to put me in the center of people's minds, i really truly didn't see that as a potential side effect. i mean yes i want to talk to my friends again but i don't want it to be a big scream and hug fest every time i utter a word you know? like i don't want it to be like everyone making me carry the whole conversation as some kind of pay back, it's just i feel like that will ruin the whole hting. i more than appreciate all the support i've recieved and i'm truly overwhelmed by the love i've been shown, don't get me wrong i've been so grateful to all my friends for being so excited about the end of this because of what that implies but at the same time their joy just makes it harder for me to play this low key. i'm not trying to oversimplify and be all holier than thou, i'm not even trying to be overly humble i'm just being honest in saying that it wasn't that bad and yes i'm glad to talk again but i don't want it to be like this huge feat that i did, this grand saintly adventure that i shoudl get a plaque for, that's just obnoxious, i'm the same as everyone else (less than really) and even though you all think you couldn't do it, if you felt like it was what God wanted you to do, you could. i'm nto claiming that i did this in my own strength adn when i tried i bombed so really the only option is that i had divine help. i don't know...we'll see how it goes, i can't say without a doubt that any of this will even be a problem, i mean if i'm going to claim to trust God with it now, why does that stop when i can talk again?

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