i am the most imperfect at my best
i want the best for others
and i'm jealous when they get it
my love for my brother is over shadowed by my hate
and in all things i continually vacilate

out of this same mouth comes cursing and praise
my heart is full of goodness and shame
i long to be righteous and then i gratify my flesh
i repent and then i do it all again

i am oh God a jumbled mass of motives
i fall prostrate before you in praise
i shake my fist and rail at you in anger
i covenant to do right and then disobey

some days it's five steps forward ten steps back
cause me to remain to dwell in your land
bind me if you must that you may keep me
from jumping over the precipice that lures me

Jesus i know i have a friend in you
but it's not enough to say i love you
cause this lowly sinner in everything i do
to walk as you would have me to

Jesus please know that my repentance isn't fake
i do so long for the things of God
please forgive me my mistakes
i know my sin is ever before me till i'm home
but keep me from these contradictions Lord

changedfish- used to be so strong....what happened to loving your neighbor as yourself?