amazing love i can't believe i've found you
amazing love i can't believe you're here...
and maybe someday you will see me the way i see you, inside

it occured to me recently, what with conversations i've had, and cedarmania dealing with the identity/myspace issue, that we don't live our profiles.
in the age of myspace, blogspot, xanga, facebook, yearbook, and countless other profile oriented websites we tend to identify ourselves with our "about me" statements, but are we really the way we say we are? i mean i was reading my profiles today and i'm just like, ok yes a lot of that is true but a lot of it is not, or rather it's not that it's not true, it's just not the whole truth, it's not an accurate representation.
can we really represent ourselves entirely with some type on a website though? i mean without actually meeting a person and being around them day in and day out how can you really know a person- heck even then are you really knowing them or just observing what they're putting out. i mean each person is so entirely dynamic you know, each person has so many layers and levels, no one can be wholly identified by a few choice phrases can they? i mean if you read what i'm like on my website and you know me then you'll understand what all of my descriptions mean, you will say yes melanie does burst into camp songs, yes she does like people, but if you didn't know me what would you think? you'd probably not understand why i say that i love people, or why do i love old people, etc. i mean those are only minor examples that don't really have to do with anything but i think that my major issue is when someone's profile is saturated in "I love Jesus" and yet i don't think their life reflects it, or vice versa, which is just as confusing, when i know someone who i feel is so spiritual and then they have a profile that is totally uncharacteristic of a Christian. it's so hard to know which is the real person, which front is for which kind of people and where do i find that persons true self among all of the apparent lies. and the same goes for me, am i living what my profile says i am? am i living something that i don't admit to when describing who i am?
i don't know, i don't know these answers, i just have these questions. it's so hard to write your entire life into one general statment. it's like a church having a missions statement, you have to condense the beliefs of an entire church into a paragraph or so. it's almost not fair for anyone to judge a church on their missions statement because while yes if something isn't doctrinally sound you shouldn't get comfy, but if nothing is shockingly out of order it's really about the people there, the messages, the feel of it- attending one week does not get you to know that church, the same as an hour of talking to a person doesn't mean you know them entirely.

changedfish- hmm