he didn't get it?
i mean ok so he prolly didn't WANT to get it, but i thought i'd made myself perfect clear. i mean who makes a phone call and specifically makes a point to say i'm not interested if they really were interested? no one does that, so why would he think it was like a maybe, u know "this isn't a date" says i "it's a date" thinks he...it's ridiculous, it's not me trying to trick him i really am not interested in that with him and therefore i thought well i don't want to lead him on, i don't want to be a tease, i want to be as nice as possible, i want to be percieved as nice but also smart, but oooh no, no matter what he didn't get it, he didn't catch that i dont want him hovering over me and touching me and inviting me to see his families scrap books and the worst part is that i feel SOO BAD for not liking him, i'm sure he will make someone extremely happy someday and she'll be like what, how could u pass him up, and he took u out and u met his family and he was just captivated by the sight of you and u turned him down? and i'll say, yea that sounds about right, gee guess i am crazy but it's just that i can't find it in myself to be excited about him, he drives me a bit up the wall at times and as sweet as he is and as much as he seems to like me i just can't do that to him, there's no part of me that wants that with him and i feel bad that he doesn't understand that, because in all my niceness i can't demand that he respect my wishes cuz i also lack a backbone and then i get so frustrated and angry and end up making it sound like i'm just this horrible person but really it's just cuz i need to vent and when i vent i can really vent, but i just need to learn to control myself a bit more...which is why i write things down, cuz then it's in a controlled environment it's out of my system i can see it and read it and here how ridiculous i sound and it's all done with. so there.
changedfish- so verizon doesn't block numbers huh?