"it's times like this when i wonder if you ever think of me..."

sometimes i think about the future, i think about the man i will marry. i wonder what he'll look like- will he be tall or short, broad or slim, blonde or brunette or auburn with freckles? will he drive a beat up truck or a brand new sports car, will he be older than me younger than me, or share my same birthday? does he think about me, his future wife? does he wait for me like i'm waiting for him? would he be creeped out that i think about him or would he be flattered that i care? have i met him yet? does he know who i am? where does he live? and where will we live? how many kids does he want, and how many will we have? what kind of family does he come from? is he a christian now, will he be a christian then? how will i know he's the one? has he made major changes in his life or has he always been the same? how will he propose and what will our wedding be like? will he die first or will i? what will he do for a living? will i stay home with kids or will i work? will he stay home with kids? will we even have kids? will he love me as much as i love him? will we be together forever? will our families like eachother? what is he doing right now? does he believe that there is only one woman out there for him the way i believe there's only one man for me? how long will we date before he pops the question? will he ask my fathers permission first? how long will we be engaged for? how big will the wedding be? where will we go on our honeymoon? will he be emotional or emotionless? will he anger easily or bottle it inside? does he cry? does he smile? what hardships has he been through? what will we go through together? will he call me melanie or some odd pet name? will he be musical? will he be creative? will he be strong? will he like the outdoors? will we fight often? will he wait for me?

cuz i am waiting for, waiting for you darling
wait for me too.
wait for me as i wait for you....darling wait

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