From my perspective
i can see you now, as you really are, i can see the loopholes, i can see the strain, i can see things i could never see before, do u know that? do u know i'm not a pawn in ur game anymore? have u figured out that i've figured you out? have you figured me out? haven't seemed to, i seem to be quite the mystery to you, while i'm an expert on ur moves. you become upset when i see through you, you don't understand why i say what i say. i don't do anything to hurt you, i'm only trying to gain a foothold, to make some progress in this quasi friendship we have. i could draw a map of ur thoughts, but i can't crack the codes. i don't know the answers but i know the questions by heart. you're such a closed book, but i've read every word, i don't know if u've noticed, i don't know if u care, i've changed my perspective, i don't handle situations the same way, i'm not what u molded me to be, i'm my own person, can you take that? does that upset you too deeply? is my strength ur weakness? my heart says comply, my mind says rebel, the emotions fade together then fade away all together, once vibrant colors i can barely make out. tell me how to find the answers, where did the paints and brushes go? what do i have to do to figure out the pieces i'm lacking? if you don't allow me to go through this process how am i to learn, grow? the person i'd go to, comes to me, and i don't know what to do....
standing in the rain, i drove to ur house but i don't remember doing it, i'm standing at your doorway, paralyzed by the reality that it's ur house i ended up at...i'm crying, i never do that, the dream's to foggy, are you inside? are you there for me? i can't tell, i always wake up....is it the fear that ur not there that turns me to stone? is it a fear u will be inside, open arms and a tender smile? what am i afraid of? why can't i move...go inside or go home
changedfish-how does ur heart beat?