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so i was noticing, and i think i've written this before but it's just soooo comforting and amazing..but like it seems as if the world's "got my back" i mean really my friends and family totally stick up for me, even people i hardly know seem to think that i'm something to defend and that's way great, like i know that if i ever needed anything i'd have a buncha people that would help me out. and people do..like when i'm down in the dumps all my friends tell me how awesome they think i am and it's like i know that they don't have to tell me those great things about me..and i'm not trying to be concieted..i often think i sound that way, i truly hope i never do, but sometimes the stupid things that come out of my mouth just sound harsh and snobby and i dunno but nehow that's not the point of this entry..the point ultimately is to thank all of you, the people that really care about me, for being there for me every step of every day, it's like i know that nothing horrible ever happens to me but somedays i feel like everything's gone wrong and there comes my fleet to combat the bad and to leave me with a refreshing good feeling...like a deep breath, it's just soooo calming and wonderful, it's just this unexplainable peaceful feeling knowing that i can tell anyone anything and no one is going to be angry or hurt me...i really feel that the people i hang out with are people that would never hurt me, and someday that may change but i seldom get my feelings hurt, pretty much because i have a heart of solid brick but also because no one is jack-hammering at it....like there's no one around that is going to harm me and stomp on me because it seems like the people i surround myself with love me so much it's just incredible! it's funny because i know how much i love my friends, like they are the most important people to me, but to hear them say that they love me that much too....i dunno, it's like u think that u have this huge unmatchable love for your friends and then all of a sudden it's as common as a cold, everyone loves everyone and how flippin great is that? if only the entire world was like that and not just my circle..that would be such an awesome place to live, i mean shasta county is a great place to be and foothill is a great place to go but think about that...just think all 60's style peace love etc about how neat it would be if the whole world were that loving and no one was out to get others and no one hated everyone else....i think i'd like to live there....someday i'll be somewhere even better- yea that's right, i'm talking about H-E-A-V-E-N whoot! i don't talk much about my faith but heck i like to throw it in so u all don't forget that's the real reason for the fat grin on my face...people ask me, why are you so happy? and i'm like uh..well..gee, i dunno...cuz God loves me, and they just look at me like uh yea sure wutever, but heck it's true and maybe someday they'll get to experience it first hand, i sure hope so.
btw, winter camp is this weekend, i'm sort of excited sort of not, cuz i really hate being cold...like it just makes me really really miserable, but i guess it's still fun, i mean i love camp and the teaching and stuff, it's just the cold and the sledding i don't really like...actually i like to sled i don't like that jump at the bottom of the snow slope, that's where everyone gets hurt and u fumble all over the place and fall of ur innertube, just not good! but the abrahamsen's and the kern's r speaking and i love both of them and thier families and the way they speak and stuff....so i'm glad about that, and with winter camp it's not as booked solid so u don't ahve to worry as much about participating in everything, u can sorta take breaks or not participate..but i really hope there's snow up there because i truly loathe eskimo hill....i just can't stand it, cuz it's freezing and there's nowhere warm to go and the hill is packed and there's always snow balls flying and it's just not safe! nehow...as long as we stay at mt. meadows we're good..and HOPEFULLY i can talk to paul weins about counseling this summer and tell him how i already counseled for camp super stuff in '03 and how he just can't live with out my help! and i can see steph cuz now that she's moved out i miss her a bit haha...i mean she was in russia for 4 months and i hardly noticed she'd left but now that she's been back i'm like where'd she go?
vwut-eva! i'm done with this shtuffs.....changedfish-hate cold? join my club!
so i was noticing, and i think i've written this before but it's just soooo comforting and amazing..but like it seems as if the world's "got my back" i mean really my friends and family totally stick up for me, even people i hardly know seem to think that i'm something to defend and that's way great, like i know that if i ever needed anything i'd have a buncha people that would help me out. and people do..like when i'm down in the dumps all my friends tell me how awesome they think i am and it's like i know that they don't have to tell me those great things about me..and i'm not trying to be concieted..i often think i sound that way, i truly hope i never do, but sometimes the stupid things that come out of my mouth just sound harsh and snobby and i dunno but nehow that's not the point of this entry..the point ultimately is to thank all of you, the people that really care about me, for being there for me every step of every day, it's like i know that nothing horrible ever happens to me but somedays i feel like everything's gone wrong and there comes my fleet to combat the bad and to leave me with a refreshing good feeling...like a deep breath, it's just soooo calming and wonderful, it's just this unexplainable peaceful feeling knowing that i can tell anyone anything and no one is going to be angry or hurt me...i really feel that the people i hang out with are people that would never hurt me, and someday that may change but i seldom get my feelings hurt, pretty much because i have a heart of solid brick but also because no one is jack-hammering at it....like there's no one around that is going to harm me and stomp on me because it seems like the people i surround myself with love me so much it's just incredible! it's funny because i know how much i love my friends, like they are the most important people to me, but to hear them say that they love me that much too....i dunno, it's like u think that u have this huge unmatchable love for your friends and then all of a sudden it's as common as a cold, everyone loves everyone and how flippin great is that? if only the entire world was like that and not just my circle..that would be such an awesome place to live, i mean shasta county is a great place to be and foothill is a great place to go but think about that...just think all 60's style peace love etc about how neat it would be if the whole world were that loving and no one was out to get others and no one hated everyone else....i think i'd like to live there....someday i'll be somewhere even better- yea that's right, i'm talking about H-E-A-V-E-N whoot! i don't talk much about my faith but heck i like to throw it in so u all don't forget that's the real reason for the fat grin on my face...people ask me, why are you so happy? and i'm like uh..well..gee, i dunno...cuz God loves me, and they just look at me like uh yea sure wutever, but heck it's true and maybe someday they'll get to experience it first hand, i sure hope so.
btw, winter camp is this weekend, i'm sort of excited sort of not, cuz i really hate being cold...like it just makes me really really miserable, but i guess it's still fun, i mean i love camp and the teaching and stuff, it's just the cold and the sledding i don't really like...actually i like to sled i don't like that jump at the bottom of the snow slope, that's where everyone gets hurt and u fumble all over the place and fall of ur innertube, just not good! but the abrahamsen's and the kern's r speaking and i love both of them and thier families and the way they speak and stuff....so i'm glad about that, and with winter camp it's not as booked solid so u don't ahve to worry as much about participating in everything, u can sorta take breaks or not participate..but i really hope there's snow up there because i truly loathe eskimo hill....i just can't stand it, cuz it's freezing and there's nowhere warm to go and the hill is packed and there's always snow balls flying and it's just not safe! nehow...as long as we stay at mt. meadows we're good..and HOPEFULLY i can talk to paul weins about counseling this summer and tell him how i already counseled for camp super stuff in '03 and how he just can't live with out my help! and i can see steph cuz now that she's moved out i miss her a bit haha...i mean she was in russia for 4 months and i hardly noticed she'd left but now that she's been back i'm like where'd she go?
vwut-eva! i'm done with this shtuffs.....changedfish-hate cold? join my club!
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