date #2..or #1..well both
strange title huh? well u see it was my second so-called "date" but my first with him...so u see it was my first and second at once. btw if ur a reader of this and ur opposed to high school dating, u'd best not read on, cuz this is a pro-dating entry.
ok, so like i said i don't use details on here so if u get lost that's ok, it's just cuz u have no idea what i'm saying lol
it was really nice, really comfy for me, i don't think i've ever been that comfortable before, and not just physically, not like "wow soft chair" like not anxious or nervous or anything, i felt accepted and confident almost...like nothing was wrong and everything was calm...and it's not like i didn't have my awkward ME moments but still it was like..all those months with someone else and i really was never comfortable, i mean i didn't know that i wasn't comfortable at the time, but i grew to realize that i was just always nervous and fluttery before, and now it's more normal, real i guess.....i don't know where things'll go from here, if that's it then that's fine..but i'm kinda hoping it's not...deep inside i'm kinda hoping that it was the same on both sides of the hug....i'm tuff i can handle it either way and such, but it's just so much better if things r equal i suppose haha
wow so that was jumbled..but it's my odd way of writting down all my feelings w/out giving TOO much away....sort of so i'll remember my memories but with out letting others share them...wow i'm selfish..but i'd like to think of it more as protective or on guard than selfish....i just don't wanna get hurt ya no, so why not leave the band-aid on a bit longer?
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