you don't know....
you don't know, you just don't get it, no one gets it! ok, so i'm sure a buncha people know and understand and get it, but somehow i haven't found or met any of them, and it's sure hard to get advice from someone you don't know yet! you can't do this to me, i mean come'on! you just don't get that we can't keep doing this, i just can't handle it! 4 months! 4 MONTHS! it took me, and now, now ur like, o well?!? no, no, no,....i just..aahhahakrreaguh i just don't know! this doesn't seem right in my head, but in my heart it can't be wrong, and i thot i would be strong, (excuse the rhyme) and in my head i am, i'm steel, i'm platinum for goodness sakes but my heart.....soft and gushy like a heart's supposed to be, and i can't take that, i won't do it, i just won't, i mean seriously it's not going to happen....rite? it shouldn't, rite? i don't even want to rite? that just makes sense, cuz it's better to regret something you did once than to regret something you repeated...problem is i dunno if i regret it totally... "sometimes people r put in your life to teach you something, and sometimes that's all they're there for" isn't that what u said? isn't that true?! so maybe that's all that it was...maybe it was just a lesson, an experience, to teach us something about life, about relationships, maybe it wasn't meant for something more, and if it is maybe we'll find that out later but for now...for now i can't do this, for now things need to stay the way they are, platonic and fun, i don't want to have to worry about this right now, i have other things going on, i'm busy, i mean heck i just got a car! lol and school starts and then things change anyhow...so u can't tell me things won't be different next week or next month, you can't tell me that things will be fine, and you can't assure me that this is the thing to do, because i'm not calm like that, things just don't work taht way w/me, and that's ok, but like u said about not waiting forever......i already didn't wait, and i know u won't wait......but that's ok... changedfish
you don't know, you just don't get it, no one gets it! ok, so i'm sure a buncha people know and understand and get it, but somehow i haven't found or met any of them, and it's sure hard to get advice from someone you don't know yet! you can't do this to me, i mean come'on! you just don't get that we can't keep doing this, i just can't handle it! 4 months! 4 MONTHS! it took me, and now, now ur like, o well?!? no, no, no,....i just..aahhahakrreaguh i just don't know! this doesn't seem right in my head, but in my heart it can't be wrong, and i thot i would be strong, (excuse the rhyme) and in my head i am, i'm steel, i'm platinum for goodness sakes but my heart.....soft and gushy like a heart's supposed to be, and i can't take that, i won't do it, i just won't, i mean seriously it's not going to happen....rite? it shouldn't, rite? i don't even want to rite? that just makes sense, cuz it's better to regret something you did once than to regret something you repeated...problem is i dunno if i regret it totally... "sometimes people r put in your life to teach you something, and sometimes that's all they're there for" isn't that what u said? isn't that true?! so maybe that's all that it was...maybe it was just a lesson, an experience, to teach us something about life, about relationships, maybe it wasn't meant for something more, and if it is maybe we'll find that out later but for now...for now i can't do this, for now things need to stay the way they are, platonic and fun, i don't want to have to worry about this right now, i have other things going on, i'm busy, i mean heck i just got a car! lol and school starts and then things change anyhow...so u can't tell me things won't be different next week or next month, you can't tell me that things will be fine, and you can't assure me that this is the thing to do, because i'm not calm like that, things just don't work taht way w/me, and that's ok, but like u said about not waiting forever......i already didn't wait, and i know u won't wait......but that's ok... changedfish
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