u no...life's soo weird, i mean, it changes soo much, not that that's bad neccasarily, just different...i think i like it!
the only thing i'm worried about is that summer is comming, and i seem to be getting kinda distant from the friends i've had all year, and altho i seem to be making others and strengthening some and all, its just that i'm worried that come summer, no matter how busy i will be, i'll still not be in the circle of social plans, and that kinda bugs me, cuz it's like if u don't start out on the rotation, there's no hope in jumping in later...allow me to explain: if at the begining of the summer u hang out a lot w/ur friends and they make plans w/u and all, then they're thinking of u next time they wanna hang out, but if u rn't on their mind at the begining, then later it's like...hmmm...already made plans sorry! (not exactly, but u catch the fear)
also, my friends r changing a lot! i mean, they've spread out, and there's kind of some conflict going on, and it's just like i wanna hang out w/some and then some others, and sometimes i don't know wut the other ones r thinking....and ya... "girls r drama!" but ya no, gotta love'em, cuz wut ya gonna do? zactly! muah, changedfish