anyone else ever get tired of ur own thots?
ok, so that's a wierd question-but i'm a weird girl, so i guess it doesn't matter. wondering y i posed such a question? well, it's just that sometimes i get tired of thinking about certain things, like some things i don't really think r that important, and yet i can't get them out of my brain! there's just to much involved w/living ur life these days. too much to think about for me to stay afloat! it's not even just my friends, or just boys, (altho, that's the majority) it's everything, i mean i'll end up spending 20 mins. thinking about wut i'm going to eat for lunch, because there's to much to consider! i've been told before that i over-analyze everything, and i know that's true, i say it all the time, i think too thouraghly! but wut's a girl to do? i mean, u can't change the way u think! nehoo, people r just weird, i don't wanna ever let anyone down, so i try to be superwoman all the time, and then wen i fail once, it seems that i fail a zillion times more after that before i finally get back to my superwoman act again. it's tiering! (can't spell again!) and people wonder y i nap so much, well geez, it's cuz i'm trying not to let u all down, i'm TRYING to give u all my attention, goodness sakes i'm trying soo hard to be perfect that i can't even think anymore! i'm being nice to this person, then that person, while trying to solve these problems over here and fix my own stuff ALL AT ONCE!! and i can't do it anymore! so if i screw up sometime, if i let'cha down ever-so-often, well...i'm sorry, but ur going to have to try and understand that i'm NOT actually superwoman, and i can't do it all!
wow, venting feels good! changedfish