I saw a spaceship fly by your window, did you see it disappear?

sometimes life comes at you so fast you don't even have time to debrief. that's what this last month or so has been like.
stefanie came to visit, it was one of the busiest homework weeks i've had all year but it was great. then it was fall break adn then sanctify weekend and then now it's thanksgiving and all the time in between was pretty eaten as well...it's so weird to think that stefanie was just here like a month ago- maybe not even that long but since then i dont' think i've stopped to breathe. my life is so different today than it was at the beginning of the year. i think that the ultimate in life is if each day can be better (even by a little) than the day before it was- i don't think i'm living the ultimate life by any means, but it's a nice ideal.
well, like i say i haven't had time to debrief my life, i shall do so now.
having stef here was great of course, it's like having home come visit. life's just not awkward when she's here, there's nothing that could go wrong or ruffle me, it' sjust the ultimate in comfort, and no she's not my husband or my mom or whatever but she's family none the less and having her around, even if we're just going to stupid classes makes my life less hectic- it's like a constant sigh of relief to have her around.
i guess i also feel that way because after she left my life exploded in a frenzy of activity. first there was fall break, which is supposed to be a time to take a few days off and relax but really it was a work weekend with Sanctify Ministry. which was actually really good- we had a lot to get done and stuff and it was nice to be thrown in with a bunch of girls that i wouldn't normally get to know- girls from different majors and backgrounds and dorms (and in asheritah's case, different countries)
however not getting that break got me a bit behind in homework and life, plus our purity camp was in 2 weeks we had a lot more to get done, and now that i work 2 nights a week my schedule's just that much smaller. it was good though, 2 crazy weeks of running here and there and everywhere, practicing the drama (which was amazing, stop now and watch this and imagine that i'm the girl in the black shirt http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA ) then was the purity conference camp weekend. which was way different than i thought it would be. i guess it's hard to hear from other people what it will be like, and i think that it was probably a lot differetn (and dare i say better?) last year, i just didn't feel the huge spiritual emphasis i hoped would be there, but i know that we did get into the lives of some of the girls adn if even one girl makes the decision to wait for marriage then i think we really did succeed.
now silly me i thought my life would calm down after that but then i realized that i still have 7 classes adn a job and 3 ministries and oh yeah, friends? or at least i think i do.
so these last 2 weeks since the conference have been just as busy as the 2 prior to it! no i don't have rehearsal every night but there's study dates and partner papers and tests to study for and projects that i put off. then there's the hey you i think you're my friend but i haven't talked to you in a while so i'm having trouble recalling your name. i tried to catch up with people but i'm not good at that either, i say that i want to catch up with them but then i either don't schedule time or whatever else and life jsut caves in i guess.
i feel like the first part of the semester went by so slow, like floating on a cloud, just kind of moving through it, no major ripples but also nothing major good either, just kidn of happened but slowly, like in slow motion (maybe a bit faster than that) and then somehow the person who pressed slow motion found the fast forward button adn clicked that for the last month adn i've been on zoom zoom mode since then!

i still feel like i haven't thought through my last month but i go home in a week and i have kind of a long flight if i need some thinking time (yeah right i'm gonna be doing homework, jamming in some turkey and a few friends and flying back...)


And even though the moment passed me by

I still can't turn away

Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose

Got tossed along the way

And letters that you never meant to send

Get lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans

That never knew their names

We don't belong to no one

That's a shame

But if you could hide beside me

Maybe for a while

And I won't tell no one your name

And I won't tell em your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose

The past is never far

Did you lose yourself somewhere out there

Did you get to be a star

And don't it make you sad to know that life

Is more than who we are

You grew up way too fast

And now there's nothing to believe

And reruns all become our history

A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio

And I won't tell no one your name

And I won't tell em your name

I think about you all the time

But I don't need the same

It's lonely where you are come back down

And I won't tell em your name

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