i'm sorry oh so sorry
i'm sorry i have a big mouth, i'm sorry i don't always think first, i'm sorry i got you into a spot.
i don't mean to give too much information, i just do sometimes- and this time it was just that i figured he already knew you know- and essentially he knew but not the details and seriously i know this kind of thing bothers him. plus i don't want her to be upset- i love them both so much and i don't like conflict in general and then i go and cause it and it's just a bit mess...i feel icky inside.
and yea i know "you shouldn't feel bad" but just because it was my fault and cuz i should've thought about it, then it is. i don't like to cause pain or stress or whatever. i dunno...i'm sure it'll end up being fine i just- i dont' like to make mistakes : (
on another note:
it's sad that it took this to make you do what you've always wanted to do. that a baby has to go fatherless because of an irresponsible teen who just wants someone to love her. that it takes enlisting in the army to make your vices go away. that adoption is never considered by that young girl of 17. what will she do when her child is 17? does she know she'll be in her 30's? who wants to be a grandmother at 35? but will the cycle break? i can't understand how someone could act so selfless about something so selfish. making a sacrifice is what it sounds like, giving up your adolesence for the betterment of this child- well maybe the betterment of the child is to be in a two parent household with parents who love him and have waited so long to have a child. to be with parents who are not children themselves, to be with parents who are not on drugs, do not drink, are not going to be irresponsible. and no, no i can not guarentee that the adoptive family would be this amazing partridge family- of course i can't. but i can say that at least the couple would be adults who want a child, want a family and are willing to go to lengths to get one.
i don't know, i knwo it's not my child, i know it's not even someone i personally know, but i just can't stand to hear stories like this when it involves people i know....
changedfish- guess that's why i pray for him
i'm sorry i have a big mouth, i'm sorry i don't always think first, i'm sorry i got you into a spot.
i don't mean to give too much information, i just do sometimes- and this time it was just that i figured he already knew you know- and essentially he knew but not the details and seriously i know this kind of thing bothers him. plus i don't want her to be upset- i love them both so much and i don't like conflict in general and then i go and cause it and it's just a bit mess...i feel icky inside.
and yea i know "you shouldn't feel bad" but just because it was my fault and cuz i should've thought about it, then it is. i don't like to cause pain or stress or whatever. i dunno...i'm sure it'll end up being fine i just- i dont' like to make mistakes : (
on another note:
it's sad that it took this to make you do what you've always wanted to do. that a baby has to go fatherless because of an irresponsible teen who just wants someone to love her. that it takes enlisting in the army to make your vices go away. that adoption is never considered by that young girl of 17. what will she do when her child is 17? does she know she'll be in her 30's? who wants to be a grandmother at 35? but will the cycle break? i can't understand how someone could act so selfless about something so selfish. making a sacrifice is what it sounds like, giving up your adolesence for the betterment of this child- well maybe the betterment of the child is to be in a two parent household with parents who love him and have waited so long to have a child. to be with parents who are not children themselves, to be with parents who are not on drugs, do not drink, are not going to be irresponsible. and no, no i can not guarentee that the adoptive family would be this amazing partridge family- of course i can't. but i can say that at least the couple would be adults who want a child, want a family and are willing to go to lengths to get one.
i don't know, i knwo it's not my child, i know it's not even someone i personally know, but i just can't stand to hear stories like this when it involves people i know....
changedfish- guess that's why i pray for him
posted by changedfish @ 3:41 PM
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