written at camp- typed later (you know cuz i actually WROTE it at camp.."no electrOnic deevices")

Funny that the more God teaches me about being a woman of God, the more He teaches me about submission. being submissive has never been something i'm good at- leading is more my thing.
i always focused on what he (my future husband) should be for me, not on what i should be for him.
i think this summer had to happen to me, to show me how not-ready i am. how ready now i am to wait patiently. that right guy IS there- God's preparing him for me- but i guess i needed a pitfall to realize that i can't answer my own prayers.
some things only experience can teach you, sometimes you have to fall to land on your knees. odd how i had the right idea- how i knew i wasn't ready and allowed myselfr to anyway. taught me to trust my instincts- God's instincts
it hasn't been an emotional year or a revival of any kind, but more of a rebuilding, a strengthening, a returning- maybe it will stick harder.

changedfish- ps misha NO i did not lose my virginity you crazy!