gosh i'm so dumb...like honestly there have GOT to be other people in this world that are as clumsy and awkward as me..there just has to be. but no where that i can find. like seriously every time i think i may be getting over it, that i'm a lot more comfortable with myself so i probably won't do something dumb because i'm not as self conscious- i'm proven wrong...and it's little things, i know it's not like i spilled red punch down my yellow shirt it's more like i stepped on a persons foot but seriously why? why do odd things always have to happen to me, and not only like one thing, like several things in one sitting....i'm just getting sick of being made fun of, tripping, spilling, knocking people over, losing my balance, burning things or myself, cooking things wrong, losing things, leaving things, not understanding/getting things/jokes....i try, i really do, i attempt not to be such an idiot sometimes but i can't help it, i just...i guess i'm not meant to be a smooth sailing kind of person, but i don't see how this is an endearing quality, it's not cute things that i do, it's like annoying, or dumb, or just plain uncoordinated.
and i know it doesn't matter in the scheme of life or whatever and people don't really notice it as much as i think they do and blah blah blah, but the people that are giving me the "it's not so bad" advice...DON"T HAVE THIS PROBLEM!
i don't know, it usually doesn't bother me that much, and i know i shouldn't let it get to me because it's unpreventable in most cases, it's just....i guess to be honest it does bother me...i think it's probably the one thing in life that bothers me the absolute most
changedfish- wet paint