it's an epidemic!
i've decided it was a good thing to allow others to read my journal. a good thing for me, a good thing for them, just a good thing. cuz see when i started this thing i wasn't gonna let anyone read it..but now it's like i don't mind, i love that people can read my thots, they can see inside my head and welp, i like that, cuz i have trouble w/feelings w/emotions w/explaining myself, esp. to people, i mean i can understand myself pretty well now-a-days but explaining my actions my feelings myself, now that i can only do through writting, and it's like when i'm typing i'm not even thinking 2 seconds ahead of what i'm doing, i'm just thinking, only through type...i dunno but it's the greatest feeling, well..not the greatest, but that's a whole 'nother thing...
life just gets complicated as u grow older, i mean things weren't supposed to get hard on me! i was supposed to stay 5 forever!...i don't mind i guess, life's just frustrating, i mean geez, it's like if i could stay the pudgy girl forever, i almost think i would, because growing up in todays society just sickens me, i mean guys can't control themselves! there was some creep hanging around my classes this past week, and buggin the girls in my class....luckily i wasn't there with them i didn't have to experience it, but seriously, i joke about wanting to be a guy, esp. cuz my youth group guys have so much fun...but sometimes i just wish i wasn't a girl, cuz it pisses me off to be thot of as some piece of ass (yes i said ass...twice..lol) i dunno why it bothered me so much it's just like, i wanted to ride my bike to my classes and i wanted to take my classes in peace w/o some strange wacko screwing it up.....i dunno, i think more than me being mad at him, i'm just mad that there doesn't seem to be anything i can do! wut i want to do is go up to the guy and just lay it out and tell him about God i mean wouldn't that be a happy ending? wouldn't that work out? but i'm soo afraid, i'm afraid to excersize my faith! it's horrible! i guess God's got other plans for me than persuing some psycho that hangs around the college campus (who's now banned from said campus but...)....changedfish signs off for relief
i've decided it was a good thing to allow others to read my journal. a good thing for me, a good thing for them, just a good thing. cuz see when i started this thing i wasn't gonna let anyone read it..but now it's like i don't mind, i love that people can read my thots, they can see inside my head and welp, i like that, cuz i have trouble w/feelings w/emotions w/explaining myself, esp. to people, i mean i can understand myself pretty well now-a-days but explaining my actions my feelings myself, now that i can only do through writting, and it's like when i'm typing i'm not even thinking 2 seconds ahead of what i'm doing, i'm just thinking, only through type...i dunno but it's the greatest feeling, well..not the greatest, but that's a whole 'nother thing...
life just gets complicated as u grow older, i mean things weren't supposed to get hard on me! i was supposed to stay 5 forever!...i don't mind i guess, life's just frustrating, i mean geez, it's like if i could stay the pudgy girl forever, i almost think i would, because growing up in todays society just sickens me, i mean guys can't control themselves! there was some creep hanging around my classes this past week, and buggin the girls in my class....luckily i wasn't there with them i didn't have to experience it, but seriously, i joke about wanting to be a guy, esp. cuz my youth group guys have so much fun...but sometimes i just wish i wasn't a girl, cuz it pisses me off to be thot of as some piece of ass (yes i said ass...twice..lol) i dunno why it bothered me so much it's just like, i wanted to ride my bike to my classes and i wanted to take my classes in peace w/o some strange wacko screwing it up.....i dunno, i think more than me being mad at him, i'm just mad that there doesn't seem to be anything i can do! wut i want to do is go up to the guy and just lay it out and tell him about God i mean wouldn't that be a happy ending? wouldn't that work out? but i'm soo afraid, i'm afraid to excersize my faith! it's horrible! i guess God's got other plans for me than persuing some psycho that hangs around the college campus (who's now banned from said campus but...)....changedfish signs off for relief
posted by changedfish @ 3:37 AM
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