day one of silence

it's interesting how many times people talk about talking in a day- when you're not talking i think you notice it a lot more.
seriously though, it was so great to sit in my advanced urban class this morning and just listen- not think about what i'm going to say next, not worry about whether what i said went over well, just listen.
it's interesting that the hardest part of this isn't really the not talking, it's getting others to understand the purpose. seriously it's not about me not talking. yes i know i'm loud and talk too much but what i hope to gain isn't so much an appreciation for silence but rather being able to take the backseat in social gatherings. i spend so much time deciding what i'm going to say and how i can be funny and get people to like me and stuff. it doesn't help when now i'm not talking but that has become the focus adn the entertainment is asking me quesotins and trying to get me to play charades or saying funny things to see what reaction i'll give.
i don't know how to fix it, like i don't knwo how to get people to understand the purpose but i think it'll just take some adjustment on all fronts (i knew it'd be an adjustment for me but i didn't fully think about others adjusting)

it's late, i need sleep and i can't think of all the things that my silence taught me today but it was definately a good day number one : )

changedfish- I entertain by the silence that you created by noise