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So this is Christmas...
well really it's spring break, but if all goes as planned al pal is finally going to teach me how to knit and that was my xmas gift...so it's practically like it's christmas.
AHH i can't believe i'm going to OHIO this week! i'm so excited, i mean you think you know what's going to happen to your life but seriously i never would've thought i would be going to college in ohio, i mean it's like a foreign country to me, i've never even been there! and sans the new york trip this past june i'd never been further east than colorado. i hope i like it there, i mean the weather is supposed to be nice, the campus looks exquisite in the pictures and everyone i've ever talked to that has gone there absolutely adored it, so i'm not really thinking i won't like it but seriously if i don't get that "i belong here" feeling when i'm there, i'm not gonna go- i'm not, i'll just stay at shasta and finish up my gen ed...like, i'm not afriad of staying at shasta, i like it here, i like that i know everyone and that my family's here and that the weather is moderate and that i've grown up in this town, i like redding, and all it's surrounding areas, i like the view out my bedroom window and having a mountain and a lake within an hour of my house, i like the beauty of this area and how the earth isn't flat...i love it here and as of this moment all cards point to coming back here to live and raise children someday...but by the same token i need to get out for a bit, i need to take some time away from the only place i've ever known, i need to learn to live away from my parents, and how to fend for myself, i need to go somewhere where i don't know anyone and am forced to meet new faces. bottom line is i want to go away, i want to try and make it quasi on my own and i think if i don't do it now i may never do it, because in the back of my mind i know that the most important job i ever want to have is being a wife and mother and if i stay here and meet an amazing man i know i'll just marry him and bear his children and have no need to leave unless he gets transfered or something like that, but ya no....i dunno, i guess i shouldn't try to make all these life decisions this second! i'm gonna visit cedarville i'm going to make my college decision and i'm going to shoot from the hip from there.
ever get the feeling that humans are severe creatures of habit? that's perhaps not worded right but here's what i mean. people don't do well with change, do you ever have a friend who you maybe dont' know too well and it seems that every time you talk to them you dance around the same subject all the time...like for instance if when you got to know them you always talked about school then you will continue to always talk about school with them every time you talk to them, the conversation never ventures to work, family , friends, significant others, no no you're always talking about classes and exams and studying and school and future schools and stuff....does that ever happen to you? because it's beginning to drive me crazy with certain people...like honestly i don't mind talking about people's problems, i truly feel honored that someone would come to me with a problem, but at the same time that doesn't mean that every time i talk to you from then on that you have to bring it up...when i ask how you're doing i actually want to know how you're doing i dont' just mean "give me an update on that single subject since the last time we talked" if i ask you specifically about that incident then i prolly want to know about it, but if i just say "what've you been up to?" it really means just that, since the last time we talked what's been going on in your life as a whole...
now there are exceptions i suppose if i'm your peer conselor, if i don't even know you well enough that you want to tell me about your day and all you feel comfy talking about is whatever we've already discussed, or if you have severe mental illness taht prevents you from talking about more than one thing with each person...also inside jokes, those are ok to bring up nearly every time you see a person if the joke is not annoying or embarassing and if you haven't just told the joke when you saw that person an hour ago. because "remember when...hahaha" jokes are only sooo funny for soo long, and then they become sooo dumb!
changedfish- "expliot me melanie, expliot me all summer!"
So this is Christmas...
well really it's spring break, but if all goes as planned al pal is finally going to teach me how to knit and that was my xmas gift...so it's practically like it's christmas.
AHH i can't believe i'm going to OHIO this week! i'm so excited, i mean you think you know what's going to happen to your life but seriously i never would've thought i would be going to college in ohio, i mean it's like a foreign country to me, i've never even been there! and sans the new york trip this past june i'd never been further east than colorado. i hope i like it there, i mean the weather is supposed to be nice, the campus looks exquisite in the pictures and everyone i've ever talked to that has gone there absolutely adored it, so i'm not really thinking i won't like it but seriously if i don't get that "i belong here" feeling when i'm there, i'm not gonna go- i'm not, i'll just stay at shasta and finish up my gen ed...like, i'm not afriad of staying at shasta, i like it here, i like that i know everyone and that my family's here and that the weather is moderate and that i've grown up in this town, i like redding, and all it's surrounding areas, i like the view out my bedroom window and having a mountain and a lake within an hour of my house, i like the beauty of this area and how the earth isn't flat...i love it here and as of this moment all cards point to coming back here to live and raise children someday...but by the same token i need to get out for a bit, i need to take some time away from the only place i've ever known, i need to learn to live away from my parents, and how to fend for myself, i need to go somewhere where i don't know anyone and am forced to meet new faces. bottom line is i want to go away, i want to try and make it quasi on my own and i think if i don't do it now i may never do it, because in the back of my mind i know that the most important job i ever want to have is being a wife and mother and if i stay here and meet an amazing man i know i'll just marry him and bear his children and have no need to leave unless he gets transfered or something like that, but ya no....i dunno, i guess i shouldn't try to make all these life decisions this second! i'm gonna visit cedarville i'm going to make my college decision and i'm going to shoot from the hip from there.
ever get the feeling that humans are severe creatures of habit? that's perhaps not worded right but here's what i mean. people don't do well with change, do you ever have a friend who you maybe dont' know too well and it seems that every time you talk to them you dance around the same subject all the time...like for instance if when you got to know them you always talked about school then you will continue to always talk about school with them every time you talk to them, the conversation never ventures to work, family , friends, significant others, no no you're always talking about classes and exams and studying and school and future schools and stuff....does that ever happen to you? because it's beginning to drive me crazy with certain people...like honestly i don't mind talking about people's problems, i truly feel honored that someone would come to me with a problem, but at the same time that doesn't mean that every time i talk to you from then on that you have to bring it up...when i ask how you're doing i actually want to know how you're doing i dont' just mean "give me an update on that single subject since the last time we talked" if i ask you specifically about that incident then i prolly want to know about it, but if i just say "what've you been up to?" it really means just that, since the last time we talked what's been going on in your life as a whole...
now there are exceptions i suppose if i'm your peer conselor, if i don't even know you well enough that you want to tell me about your day and all you feel comfy talking about is whatever we've already discussed, or if you have severe mental illness taht prevents you from talking about more than one thing with each person...also inside jokes, those are ok to bring up nearly every time you see a person if the joke is not annoying or embarassing and if you haven't just told the joke when you saw that person an hour ago. because "remember when...hahaha" jokes are only sooo funny for soo long, and then they become sooo dumb!
changedfish- "expliot me melanie, expliot me all summer!"
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