i have nothing shocking to say today, i really never do, but at the moment i was just sitting here thinking how i never see wut other people see. i mean i never see me as others do, physically or not, i just plain don't see myself thro the eyes of others. i mean im not saying other people do, but i always think that other people understand how they're veiwed by the world, they know where they stand, where they belong, and altho i know it's not true, its just wut i seem to think.
it's like u no how, some days people keep saying u look good, and ur just like, wut? i look horrible today, i didn't even take a shower this morning! (well, people don't usually compliment u on those days but ya) u know wut i mean? it's like u never can tell wut u come across as, i never know how i sound to others, sometimes i feel bad, cuz people take me the wrong way, other times it worx in my favor (not often) sometimes the way i say something, sounds like im mad, and people get offended, and sometimes i look like somethings wrong, and nothing is. other times i appear happy and im not. im not saying people r bad at reading me, i think i'm bad at conveying my feelings correctly, the way i do things just doesn't match up. i dunno, if i knew, then i wouldn't spend all this time typing this out...obviously! anyhow, catch ya later, changedfish